1 June 2010

Today we said goodbye to Dr Tan and his staff. We will no longer take Cho there to give her shots to prolong her life. She can no longer walk. She can no longer enjoy life with the exception of laying in her bed and sleeping. She wants to go no where. I look at pictures of her history as she looks back of me. She trusts me to protect her and do the right thing by her. Isn't coincidental that the study of the Quiqley case would give me the insight on my wife's case. How much compassion that is allowed a pet that we do not allow a human being? The Catholic church allows no heroic means to sustain life. At this time of utter immobility, I have decided to stop the heroic means on sustaining Cho's life through these shots. I am numb. I have absolutely no one to converse with on this decision with the exception of my social worker and that will be next week. I know that my decision is a huge decision and I feel that it is a correct decision. How much do I love my wife? I love her with all my heart, soul and body. I do not want her to needlessly to suffer. Not if I have a choice to help her go to heaven peacefully.