24 May 2010

Put some California Rock on - You're So Vain. I had some girl sing that to me one time. I was and still am in some sence. How is it that we develop our major traits and it takes so much effort to correct them?

I went to Denny's today after my session with my social worker and enjoyed their sausage gravy and biscuit side dish. It is the best and the best price. Left the waitress a dollar tip and it cost less than $4. Of course I recommend this to all those who like this dish. Don't count the health benefits. I also found out that I qualify for Denny's senior citizen breakfast at 55. I am getting older and I want to make a bigger impact on the life around me. If just to give more love to those around me. Grandpa Wilkins was honored at his funeral by the town turning out to his funeral and passing of a kind and good man. Man, I would be proud to be recognized like he was.

I hate paying $25 for each 45 minute session with my social worker but it is amazing how fast my time goes by. I just blabber away and she says some words of healing to me. To make me realize that it is not all my fault in some sense but of course it is my responsibility on how I deal with it. It is never THEY did this but I did this to protect myself. She even suggested that I may be suffering from post traumatic stress syndrome of a sort. As I tell her my history she can see more of me and I explain a bit more of me. She told me the other week I am a hero/co-dependent because I take care of all of those around me without regard to myself. I am like an oil well gusher - I spew all of this out. I have had no one to talk to for so long - no one I trusted. Finally I have an outlet.

I think that I don't always have something to say but maybe it is I don't meditate on my current self and see what I am feeling and thinking. Sometimes we may be able to write a book , a poem, or a sentence. It is all significant.

Took Cho to PRESS 626 for the BEST GRILLED CHEESE SANDWICH IN HAMPTON ROADS. We had it with bacon and tomato and four cheeses - Vermont Cheddar, Swiss, Pepper Jack, and Goat Cheese. Cost $11. I think they raised their price a bit but it was a special sandwich that came with fries and it was filling for the two of us. We could of had soup, salad or fresh fruit. Cho had a herbal orange blossom tea from a French Press. She really enjoyed and I went and bought some tea from Norfolk Coffee and Tea and then a French Press from Somona to make her some at home. PRESS 626 was very intimate with four stations - outside, bar, fireplace, and offset room. The fireplaces had candles in them to be lit at night to give it a sparkle - that is something I can use in my own fireplace. They also served their water in refrigerated wine bottles which was cool. Yes I recommend them....It cost me $19 tax and tip for a great meal and the best service I have had in a long time.

I finally figured out and posted one item for sale on E-Bay. I am so pleased. This is a start. This and Craig's list to start a business of sorts. It all depends on what you pay for something if you are able to turn a profit on it.