13 April 2010

I have two days to do my taxes. Should be simple except I don't have my W-2s. There is a way to get them and I will handle that tomorrow.

I have had the squirts all day today. Very unpleasant and I basically did not go out socially. I did go and get 3 meds that had ran out for Cho and then looked up the price of them. Cho would be dead without the insurance that we have. The retail cost of these 3 meds is $650. LOL. I forgot that we went to hematologist today....that cost is usually around 3K or so. I think it was the orange juice and ice that I ground up for my craving for juice today that upset my system. Too much sugar. OK enough medical stuff. Well before I let you go - Cho was feeling bad so I helped her take all her meds today and since I wasn't feeling all that great I made sure I did too and including taking my insulin.

Recieved my Overeaters Anonymous book and The Rules for Normal Eating today. Started to delve into them. Part of my lifetime change. I realized that drinking alcohol, though I might miss the "fun" of parties and such, makes me sick. To drink it is to surely kill me. I am allergic to it. One drink and I have to have a thousand. I am sure that overeating is related to this and it is another addiction I have to overcome before it ends my life. I have stopped smoking - of which I am proud - but how did I stop smoking? I changed my attitude about the smoke. I didn't want it in my lungs. Now every so often I want to have a cigarette but to play with it. One time I actually took another puff and it tasted just as nasty as it did when I started. I know that for me to smoke is three packs a day.

I have basically given up on the political talk shows - they make me feel bad. Why should I do that with myself? It is all negative.